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I LOVE MY WIFE !!1!1!1!1


her. feeling extra silly.


HELLO. THIS IS MY WIFE. HER NAME IS DUDE. WE HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR ONE HUNDRED THOUSAND GAZILLION YEARS. HE IS PROBABLY LIKE MORE THAN 20 YEARS OLDER THAN ME AND I LOVE THAT AND DONT CARE ABOUT THAT. say hi to her OR ELSE I WILL KILL YOU WITH MY BOYSBIAN FURY AND RAGE POWERS





mkay jokes aside, hey there, welcome to my postal dude shrine !! here ill just nerd about how much i love the dude and etc etc etc, ive become a fan of postal and have been extremelly fixated on it for a while, i selfship with the dude and he is a comfort character slash fictional fictional father igure and also kind of an important weird kin to me aswell in some way i dont completly get. I feel closer to p1 dude than most dudes however postal 2 is my favourite game from the series from the ones ive played, ive played the first game, the second game and (altho i havent finished it) brain damaged and recently i got postal 4 however it kind of runs like shit on my computer (and also ive watched the postal movie and as shit as it is i really loved it), i deal with very nasty evil intrusive thoughts relating to multiple things that stem mainy from trauma and paranoia and so i kind of on some way see myself on the dude at the same time that am very in love with him at the same time that i really do not condone his more...violent actions i guess ? i dont know all i wanna say is he is very important for me and for some reason i really relate to his character on a way i dont get, maybe its the trauma, maybe its the fact i really envy his appearence on a gender way, its complicated on a way even i myself dont really get, anyways enough yapping for now (ill come back to it soon dont worry !)





as a trans man, being into and playing postal and the games in general and a lot of in general traditionally "dudebro" media and things i am into (such as metalocalypse and nu metal for example) gives me a very odd weird strange sensation of euphoria and makes me feel more connected to my own manhood in some way, it is weird but a lot of hostile edgelord media makes me feel like i am getting in touch with a weird flavour of masculinity that normally feels like it would be very hostile to me, and not only that but violence and violent thoughts are and for a lot of time have been my main trauma responses, wich all make it so i feel very connected to and close to the postal world as unserious and violent and kind of childish or unnecessarely edgy as it can be. The second game specifically resonates with me a lot not only because of all teh stuff ive explained right now but also with just how fun it is to me like in general, like gameplay wise, its just actually very fun to fuck around and find out there and the game also has a fuckton of exploration wich is and will allways be good for my brain !!! the exploration in postal 2 and how much you can find on that game is actually one of my favourite aspects of it and it is one of if not my favourite game of all time for that and multiple other reasons, other than being very fun as ive said i genuinelly really really like the dumb humour of it...like it doesnt always hit but when it hits oh my god it HITS, i know this is dumb to say about a game whos main joke is like..."lol penis" but i still really like it yknow, so yeah, i think thats all i got to say here for now



MKAY BACK TO MY WIFE !!!111!1!!111!
her again. art by skeltrr on tumblr !!


I LOVE HER SO MUCH !!!! SHE IS THE PRETTIEST WOMAN SLASH MAN IVE EVER SEEN !!!! I LOVE HIM SO BAD !!! GRAAAAAHHHH !!!! I LOE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER SHES SO IMPORTANT TO ME I LOVE HER SO MUCH I LOVE HER I LOVE HER;...heres my headcanons of p1 dude, i was going to write the ones i have for the rest of the dudes but ive already writen 840 words about him and i feel like if i write more i will go crazy insane mode


MY HEADCANONS GRAHHH:

P1 !!! i feel like he would identify himself as non binary but like...not exactly have the words for it...like hed use he/it/she methinks but he doesnt have social media and just picked it up from learning you could do those things and identified as such bcuz its how he felt, i hc him as autistic and had a very lonely child-to-teenagehood-to-adulthood, being one of the weird isolated kids that read on a corner while people were having fun and only interacted with the few other weird kids that he could find im REALLY projecting with this one sorry, since childhood hes been mainly nonverbal and is used to being a shadow upon peoples life rather than an active player on them, however and seeks to someday do something to change this you can guess what that ended up being, he loves horror and horror flicks and i imagine that to him the weirder and more obscure possible the better it is for him as pretentious as this sounds (however he does still loves the goofier stuff), he collects phisical media and random stuff a lot and is very proud of said collections, wich includes tapes, books, dvds, random shit he finds from the rare times he goes outside, and guns !!

He has a special interest on anything gorey and bloody, guns, music, books, history stuff and arts in general ! speaking of music, i believe hed be a noisecore kind of guy as cheesy as this sounds, aswell as being into industrial and even neofolk from time to time, his favourites from each of these in my opinion would be the gerogerigegege, psychic-tv stuff and anything related, and death in june, i feel like the dude is really like, antisocial so some people may think hes just too shy to talk to people when like,,..hes not he just not wanting to socialize, hes the kind of guy to not want to have a lot of friends but still really seeks to do something for the world that will make his life slightly worth, he is a surprisingly good artist wich is something that stems from his time as a kid drawing, at school he would be a mid-to-bad-level student while having a very hard time paying attention to almost all classes (the two exceptions to this being history and geography), he drew on his notebook a lot and when he grew he kept drawing and he now mainly draws shit related to his spinterests and abstract psychodelic-esque art and animals, at times both (think louis wains weirder works for example)

Terrible interactions with adults have made it so he since a kid has envied those who had better and healthier childhoods, he activelly gets happy from human suffering including his own, as he sees himself as part of the problem for existing as a human alone to a point of self harming, with time hes lost most of the few people he trusted and felt like interacting with and he has become more and more distrusting of society with time to a point of becoming completly isolated from it, trying to live on his own realm as much as possible with exceptions, the dude is also very religious and has been (sorry for repeating this so much but) since he was a child, he has a lot of religious trauma, he grew up on a catholic household and you can take the boy out of the church but trust me you cannot take the church out of the boy !! he doesnt like church a lot due to how much it reminds him of his parents you can tell im projecting with this one aswell, he has ocd and interpretates his own intrusive thoughts as demons and has dealed with them since he was a child (sorry for saying this that much holy SHIT), he involuntarelly age regresses but he doesnt know hes doing that nor how hes doing that so he just interpretates it as freaking the fuck out and like, going insane and whenever he does it its usually a very negative and troublesome experiences, wich he self loathes a lot about it, also now back to a lighter subject He preffers savoury foods over sweet stuff and he is a bit of an old grumpy geezer however it doesnt mean he is grumpy all the time as much as negative feelings and paranoia and awfull stuff are constantly looming on his mind, he also has a dark but snarky weird "sense of humour" if you could call it that, hes the type of person to really like watching people trip and fall over but that falling over includes whenever they die, also i fforgot to say this earlier but he definitivelly has a thing for writing and loves reading in general, his taste on books is quite edgy and so is the stuff he himself writes so yeah, i think thats all i have to say, thanks a lot for reading all this !!

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FANART SESSION !!!111!1!!111!

heres some of my favourite fanart of my wife !! i tried limiting myself to not so many of them and including about one per artist because i believe this website has has enough dumb stuff, still here are some of my favourite pieces of fanart for my wife (none done by me) and some text about them and why i like them so very much 1!!

by skeltrr, this just makes me feel so very happy and comforted for some reason, there have been a few times where ive had breakdowns and i looked at this for a while to get better, its just so cute and happy and silly and they are both so me oh my god im sorry but this is a very important drawing for mme and i really love it



by asylumpuffz, this ones just very beautiful and honestly...kind of relatable, sorry to get personal here but it reminds me of back when i was on a religious church school thing when one of my classmates forced me to come out to him as bisexual and harrassed me into a breakdown about it, i cried on the corner of recess when it happend and a very kind school employee told me to pray and it was very kind and sweet and she was the only person that tried to help me and as kind of her as it was it kind of felt like this and like god really was not listening at all...it was a kind of terrible time but im glad i have art like this to kind of mirror how it felt to the world as weird as this sounds, sorry for being weird



by gargloyl, not gonna lie i think this ones just really funny and also i like how its drawn and also i have a soft spot for nine eleven jokes for some reason so yeah



by kmpshitposter, i dont know why i like this one so much, i just really do, he looks so very me on that and so very cool and just...i dont know i just like this a lot its nice its awesome its pawesome its very cool and all




by redswaberkez, another one that i just find really good and cool, good art thank you original artist good stuff mwah


by 001-radioactive, HE LOOKS SOOO SILLY !!!! SILLY GOOFY SILLY GOOFY GOOFY SILLY SILLY GOOFY SHE IS SO GOOFY I LOVE HIMMMMMM YESSSSS



by starn707, another one that i just really love because it looks very good and i just really like it, the colours are amazing, the style is amazing, no complaint here i just really like it !!



mkay thats all i think, ive written and coded a lot like...a LOT but i hope you all liked reading all the stuff ive had to say, thats all, sorry for yapping, thats all, goodbye !!

you, leaving, right now